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Name: Pauline
Gender: Female
Interests: I love going to the mall, movies, talk on the phone, watch tv, listen to music, chat, play sports: volleyball, basketball, & swimming, ice skating, rollerskate, hang out w/ ma family and friends, chill out...., play DDR even though I'm not even really good in it! haha..... I like eating ice cream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Occupation: Artist
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  lil paulie91
AIM:  sw33t lov3r18
AIM:  t3ddylover13
Yahoo:  paulinemarie91
Yahoo:  lil_paulie91
Member Since:
3/18/2005
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| wow its been a while since i posted a blog. so its really over with kanin, we dont talk or c each other nemore, after wat happen at my party, hindi na kami pwedeng maging mag kaibigan. so neway, tulog na ako kasi late na. I'm tired.
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| yeahhhh ok so once again i cant seem to fall asleep........
i think i'm lost with this whole thing about kanin again...........................................................its like wtf?!?!?!?!!?!?!? I admit it yes....I still have a lil bit of feelings for him..............but this blog wont help me................I need to stop this feeling................da more i like him the more it'll get tooo complicating and hurt.........................but i cant help my self..........no one understands me =/
i jst dont want him to find out, but as for now I'm happy that we are friends =) and i dont want that to ruin again..............
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busy me
okkkkk
soooo I started working a week ago and thats one of the reason why i
have been sooo busy and occupied....and have no time left for my self
to have fun Oh gooodddd!!!! On top of that all of these FINAL tests are
coming up and geeeeez it has been stressing me out........If I'm not
staying after school for a study session I would go to work and I would
usually get all of my stuff done there (studying) c how busy I
am......oh gosh..............sooooooo plz forgive me if U felt as if I
havent giving u guys time =( But when I'm free I promise we'll have FUN
=)
3 day weekend
Friday:
1. Went to school
2. Took the long ass test
3. Had free time in Spanish class
4. long ride to six flags with Drea and Airhoe
5. Six FLAGS baby!!!!!
6. Rollercoaster!
7. SUPERMAN & BATWING!!! simply the best
8. Getting wet!
9. Getting wet over the bridge!!!
10. Last ride! Superman!
11. FUNNEL CAKE
12. Airial's HOUSE!!
13. My house!
14. Saw Ate Marybeth
15. went to sleep
Saturday:
1. Left to Jorge's house
2. Solomon's island with all my cousin! <3 Malex
3. Beach!
4. Tann!
5. Danielle!!!
6. Crab!!
7. Malex!!
8. FOOD
9. Dance
10. PAPIST on da loose!
11. Stalker on the loose!
12. dance at 8 but we couldnt go =(
13. went to tita akai's house
14. Left around 12
15. Got home
16. Slept in the couche
Sunday:
1. Woke up
2. Itchy!!!
3. dress shoppin with Malex
4. HOTTT!
5. Went to work
6. Home alone.....
7. I'm bored! Message me
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| k soo yesterday I sent them how I felt.
I wrote it with anger
I wrote it with hatred
I was so sure
that I never ever
wanna talk to them ever again
but lastnight
my dearest brother called
he told me that i was wrong
i had no rights to say all mean things to her
=( that he knows i care about him
but he never saw that side of me b4
he was disappointed
he was mad
I dont understand why???
I wrote that because I was hurt
I wrote that because it was the only way for me to let it all go away
I wrote that to let her know how I felt
And if she got offended by it well then
Now she knows how it hurts me
I know I made a mistake not telling him
But I know I didn't make a mistake writing how ever I felt
Or explaining what I'm really thinking
But I am deeply sorry if she got hurt
Thats not really any of my intension
I cried all night
Thinking all of the word my dearest brother said to me
And yes I feel bad
For him
Next time I need to b careful with my actions
I know
But I guess next time
I'll let him solve his own
problem
And as for me,
I wont bother them any more
I love u my dearest brother
And I never meant to hurt you
All I was trying to do was b here for u
Obey U
Follow ur footsteps
And have ur back
I know things for u is very complicating
and ur trying to fix it
Dont worry I'm still proud of U
Ur my cock blocking brother
and thanxxx
<3333
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yeah i know its fucked up.......
Ok
first of all.............matagal na pinagsamahan niyong dalawa and dont
say na iniwanan ka niya kasi hindi ka na niya mahal pero alam mo
talagang maliwag ang mga dahilan niya kung bakit ka niya
iniwan.......dahil sa mga pagakakamali mo! Incase hindi mo lang alam
talagang minal ka niya ng husto pero sa tingin ko binaliwala mo lang
yon..........bakit mo sasaktan kung sinabi mo hiniding hindi mo siya
papakawalan, iiwanan, o ipagpapalit?!?!?! Ewan ko kung bakit ka pa
maghahanap ng iba kung alam mo na minahal ka niya ng totoo.......Kung
ako ikaw contento na ako kung meroon lalaking magmamahal sakin ng tunay
and lubos. Para bang linoko mo lang pagmamahal niya saiyo. Isa kang
taong walang utang na loob! Mahirap o masakit ito pakingan pero alam mo
totoo lahat ng sibasabi ko...........Kung talagang mahal mo siya edi
sana nag isip ka muna bago ka gumawa na alam mo hindi niya
magugustohan. Kahit minsan hindi ko nakita o narinig si kuya na
nakikipag usap kung kani-kanino lang jan. Sa tingin mo he will do
somethiiing like dat to u?? Ewan ko ba kung bakit mo hinayaan to
mangyari.......binigyan ka na nga niya ng maraming beses na pagkakataon
pero it seems like to me dat u didnt even took it seriously? Anong
claseng pagmamahal ba binigay mo sa kuya ko??? Bakit mo hinayaan ito
mangyari?
Ok, soooo pinagkatiwalaan din kita, trinato kita
parang ate ko, di lang ako pati pamilya ko trinato ka namin parang
pamilya...........Akala ko talaga ikaw na ang perfect girlfriend para
sa kuya ko.....pero u know what? Malaking pagkakamali ko saiyo! Hindi
ko akalahin na ganito pala ang buhay........meroong mga taong akala mo
pwedeng pwede mong IPAGKATIWALAAN but they will turn and go ahead hurt
ur feeling and break ur heart......Alam mong hindi ko ito sasabihin for
just no reseason..........wala masyadong akong sinasabi, alam mong
humble lang akong tao, unless meroon akong nakita na
pagkakamali........and I think U really messed up on first off talkin
to the guy u knew I liked..........Kung alam mong may gusto ako sa
kanya......bakit mo pa pinagpatuloy na kausapin siya? Hindi lang yon
alam mo nang ayaw na ni kuya kayong nag uusap tapos hindi mo man lang
samin pinaalam...............next thing U kno I had to hear it from
somebody else......and dats jst really fucked up...........U kno.
Hindi mo lang talaga alam, nung narinig ko lahat ng mga katotohanan sa
mga taong ito.........ayoko maniwala...............cuhz I knew
u...........and Jayson would never do dat..........pero nagkamali din
ako..........hmmmmmmm...........and kaya pala hindi niya ako
tinatawagan..........and everything chages from dat point..........now
everything is clear...............yun pala its bcuhz of U..........mga
excuses niya......parehas lang pala kayo..............talagang
nakakapaniwala....................yon pala puro kasinungalingan lang
ang lahat................Ngayon alam ko na kung bakit my kuya felt like
dis about Jayson....................pero ok lang yon..........mga tao
lang tayo.........nagkakamali.............it was a mistake knowing and
loving u..........it was a mistake believing HIM
And as
for U, ewan ko ba kung bakit pa kita na gustohan akala ko lahat ng
hinahanap hanap ko sa lalaki ay matatagpuan ko na saiyo pero nagkamali
din ako diyan.........Tama ang kuya ko and kung pwede nga lang dapat
nakinig na lang ako sakanya instead of going for it........yan tuloy na
pala ko.................sabi mo ur different pero wow Oo nga ur
different........saan ka makakahanap ng lalaking mangloloko katulad mo,
feeling ko pinaglaruan mo lang how I felt about U...................and
I thought we were cool..............next thing U know aagawin mo lang
ang babaeng minahal ng kuya ko...? right after they broke up?!?!?!?!
what kind of friend is dat??? And u said u will never do dat??? I
believed u the first time, pero ngayon.........theres enough reason why
I shouldnt believe nething U say nemore......out of all da ppl why
her??? bakit?!?!?!?!?! dat is ur friend's ex g/f....................U
knew how he felt about her...............U knew how I felt as if she
was my own sister.....bakit pa siya?!?!?!?!
Ang kapal din ng
muka mo nohh?!?!?! Ang galing mo talagang maging kaibigan! Nagkamali
talaga ako saiyo. Ngayon naiintindihan ko na kung bakit sobrang init ng
ulo at dugo ng kuya ko saiyo..................Sayang talaga naniwala
ako sa lahat ng mga sinabi mo, I even told my self that my kuya is
wrong about U, I didnt want to believe him kasi nga I talked to U and u
seem sooooo real. Lahat ng trust ko saiyo nawala na................yon
pa naman ang pinakaimportante sa friendship...................oh and
HONESTY! Bakit hindi mo na lang samin sinabi, instead of doing it
behind my kuya's back? Well ikaw choice mo yan........and U should know
by now that what ur doing is wrong and fucked up...........if ur really
Albert's friend dapat nag isip ka muna bago ka gumawa ng decision
mo.........................Halos lahat ng gusto kong malaman narinig ko
na.......So salamat talaga............sana lumigaya kayong
dalawa........pero tandaan mo ito.....................U'll never b as
great as my brother! Hinding hindi mo siya ma re-replace or even come
close to him!!! Cige Paalam na!
Ok so baiscally
I'm done wit their BULL shiiiii and I hope U are 2 kuya
<3...............jst forget about them, move on and enjoy da best
life the world has to offer.......we dont deserve that kind of
treatment..............
if thats how U
both r gonna act................then fine......after all the best
things he did for you.....dis is da way ur gonna repay him? And when U
were in big problems.............who was ther to help u? And did I ever
complain nooong tinulungan ko kayo? No..............
Hinding
hindi lang talaga ako makapaniwala.........that someone like U guys
will do such things like diss........napaka messed up talaga!!!! its
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